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	<title>Bah! to cancer &#187; Stephanie</title>
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		<title>Belfast Confetti</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 20 May 2012 17:13:19 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Musings]]></category>
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		<description><![CDATA[You know how, sometimes, something keeps cropping up? (Or, as a psychologist might put it, you know how, sometimes, there&#8217;s the Baader-Meinhof effect?)
Well, at the Writing Britain exhibition at the British Library yesterday, I listened to a recording of Ciaran Carson reading his poem &#8216;Belfast Confetti&#8217;. I hadn&#8217;t come across it before, and I thought it [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>You know how, sometimes, something keeps cropping up? (Or, as a psychologist might put it, you know how, sometimes, there&#8217;s <a href="http://www.damninteresting.com/the-baader-meinhof-phenomenon/" target="_blank">the Baader-Meinhof effect</a>?)</p>
<p>Well, at the <a href="http://www.bl.uk/writingbritain" target="_blank">Writing Britain exhibition at the British Librar</a>y yesterday, I listened to a recording of Ciaran Carson reading his poem &#8216;Belfast Confetti&#8217;. I hadn&#8217;t come across it before, and I thought it startlingly, starkly beautiful. Less than three hours later, on the train, I was reading <a href="http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/0749953136/ref=as_li_ss_tl?ie=UTF8&amp;tag=bahtocan-21&amp;linkCode=as2&amp;camp=1634&amp;creative=19450&amp;creativeASIN=0749953136" target="_blank">The Boy Who Could See Demons by Carolyn Jess-Cooke</a>, and there was the poem, quoted in full.</p>
<p>If that isn&#8217;t a poem saying it wants to be a blog post, I don&#8217;t know what is.<a href="http://www.poetryarchive.org/poetryarchive/singlePoem.do?poemId=339" target="_blank"> Click here</a>, and you&#8217;l find a page with both the text of the poem and a box which is a recording of the poet reading it. I&#8217;d recommend the second option: I think you will find it a minute and eighteen seconds well spent.</p>
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		<title>Bah! revisited: Help Yourself</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 19 May 2012 07:29:50 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Cancer Treatment]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[bah! revisited]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[cancer]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[lung cancer]]></category>

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		<description><![CDATA[Visiting The Udderbelly with Ned last week reminded me of this post, first published in May 2009&#8230;. three years. Wow. Time flies when you&#8217;re having.. um.. a cancer.
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Last night, Ned and I went to a Comedy Store Live gig at Udderbelly. (Which, in case you are wondering, is a temporary venue in the form of [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Visiting The Udderbelly with Ned last week reminded me of this post, first published in May 2009&#8230;. three years. Wow. Time flies when you&#8217;re having.. um.. a cancer.</p>
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<p>Last night, Ned and I went to a Comedy Store Live gig at Udderbelly. (Which, in case you are wondering, is a temporary venue in the form of a giant upside down inflatable cow near the London Eye on the South Bank. I&#8217;m not making this up! Check it out <a href="http://www.underbelly.co.uk/index.php">here</a>.) The gig before ours was late coming out, so we spent quite a while in the queue. It was a cheek-by-jowl queue providing the challenge of pretending not to be able to hear other people&#8217;s conversations when clearly you could.<br />
One of the people in the group behind us was having an argument with his girlfriend on the &#8216;phone. His end of the conversation went: &#8220;Relax, baby&#8230;.. relax. If you relax you&#8217;ll see that there isn&#8217;t really a problem&#8230;.. relax&#8230;&#8230;.. I&#8217;m not saying that, baby, I&#8217;m just saying that if you relax&#8230;&#8221; (Male readers, let me give you a little tip here. If you are having an argument with an irate girlfriend, telling her to relax is about the least effective way of getting her to relax. It&#8217;s a good way to wind her up, though.)<br />
In front of us, one of a group of three lit up a cigarette. Girlfriend Argument Guy said, &#8220;Would you mind not smoking, please?&#8221; Smoking Bloke said, &#8220;We&#8217;re outside.&#8221; I could see that Girlfriend Argument Guy was going to turn into Simultaneous Girlfriend And Smoker Argument Guy, and I was already concerned about the state of his relationship. Also, smoking stinks and you have to make the most of the scant benefits of cancer. So I put in, &#8220;Actually, mate, I&#8217;ve spent the last six months being treated for cancer so I could do without it as well.&#8221; Smoking Bloke instantly put his cigarette out. I said &#8220;Sorry.&#8221; (Hey, I&#8217;m British.) Girlfriend Argument Guy said, &#8220;All I&#8217;m saying, baby, is that if you just relax&#8230;.&#8221; (If you know this couple, I wouldn&#8217;t go buying any hats.)<br />
So, Smoking Bloke was obviously completely aware that smoking=cancer. (I didn&#8217;t &#8216;fess up to breast cancer as I felt it would undermine my argument.) Yet he was still doing it. And all of his friends who know that secondary smoking=cancer were happily standing next to him. It made me think of the people I occasionally see outside the hospital entrance: usually in a dressing gown, often in a wheelchair, grey as wallpaper paste, bones of their skulls visible, and lighting up a cigarette. (Once, I saw someone alternately inhaling from a cigarette and an oxygen cylinder. Really. I could have cried. And I really wondered what was going on in the head of the relative who&#8217;d wheeled him outside.)</p>
<div>I know we all think that things like cancer never happen to us; I know that when you are in your twenties and waiting to see some comedy with your friends on a gorgeous summer evening, the possibility that one little cigarette is the beginning of something that can destroy you seems ridiculous. But it isn&#8217;t. The fact that social pressure made Smoking Bloke grumblingly drop his cigarette after one inhale may have made a measurable difference to his life expectancy.</div>
<div>I have to admit, though, that had Girlfriend Argument Guy not asked Smoking Bloke to put his cigarette out, I probably wouldn&#8217;t have put my two penn&#8217;orth in either. But the whole thing made me think. So in future I might ask more people to put more cigarettes out. It&#8217;s not going to do anything for those of us with breast cancer but it could save a whole lot of lungs. Please, feel free to join in.</div>
<div>(By the way, the gig was great. Will Smith, Stephen K Amos, Justin Bloomfield, and Tim whose surname I didn&#8217;t catch, thank you. I was in need of a great big laugh and I got one!)</div>
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		<title>Cancer Free Friday: one of those weeks</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 18 May 2012 08:58:07 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Cancer Free Friday]]></category>

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		<description><![CDATA[I&#8217;ve had one of those weeks&#8230; you know, the ones people talk about? The ones where everything just seems to go well? Yup, those weeks. Behold the evidence:
1. I went through the copy-edited manuscript for Thrive, and it needed hardly any changes. (That sentence shows very well why a copy editor is a girl&#8217;s best [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;ve had one of those weeks&#8230; you know, the ones people talk about? The ones where everything just seems to go well? Yup, those weeks. Behold the evidence:</p>
<p>1. I went through the copy-edited manuscript for Thrive, and it needed hardly any changes. (That sentence shows very well why a copy editor is a girl&#8217;s best friend.)</p>
<p>2. All of my travel arrangements have worked (so far).</p>
<p>3. A man on the tube who was looking over my shoulder as I played iPhone Scrabble (I don&#8217;t think he was being nosy, it was just busy and he couldn&#8217;t really not look) burst out,&#8217;Oh, I say! Well played!&#8217; when I put STANZAS on a triple word score.</p>
<p>4. Another man on the tube, who looked as though he had spent all day painting and/or plastering, offered me his seat. I declined, because I had been mostly sitting down all day and I suspected him of mostly standing up.</p>
<p>5. I met up with Ned, and I drank rhubarb cider, while he went for mulled apple and honey.</p>
<p><a href="http://bahtocancer.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/GetAttachment.aspx_2.jpeg"><img class="aligncenter size-full wp-image-3718" title="GetAttachment.aspx" src="http://bahtocancer.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/GetAttachment.aspx_2.jpeg" alt="" width="159" height="213" /></a></p>
<p>We were at<a href="https://www.underbelly.co.uk/" target="_blank"> The Udderbelly</a> to hear John Sinclair and Howard Marks, who are a million times more effective than any &#8216;just say no&#8217; drugs campaign, but the event was oddly charming.</p>
<p>6. I had sorrel for the first time in my life, and it was DELICIOUS. Nathalie (provider of the sorrel, in a sauce with salmon) says that even I, with my Northern clime and my anything-but-green fingers, could grow it.</p>
<p>7. My beloved godson Ellis left this note by my bed.</p>
<p><a href="http://bahtocancer.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/GetAttachment-1.aspx_2.jpeg"><img class="aligncenter size-full wp-image-3719" title="GetAttachment-1.aspx" src="http://bahtocancer.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/GetAttachment-1.aspx_2.jpeg" alt="" width="214" height="159" /></a></p>
<p>It was accompanied by a tableau of fighting cat action figures and a meringue, wrapped in a tissue with a daisy on top.</p>
<p>8. I saw Jo, who works in publishing, which was a lovely thing in itself, AND she gave me two shiny new hardbacks. I think people-who-work-in-publishing forget how utterly thrilling for a reader it is when someone gives them a book. (Please see earlier comment re copy editor.)</p>
<p>9. Smita told me possibly my favourite &#8216;you can&#8217;t argue with that&#8217; quote of all time, from Wyatt Earp: &#8220;Speed is fast, but accuracy is final.&#8221;</p>
<p>10. I have decided to let a kitten find me.</p>
<p>I hope you are having one of those weeks too.</p>
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		<title>Worth a listen</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 17 May 2012 08:27:51 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[There&#8217;s nothing that cheers up a morning quite like listening to an interview with the Dalai Lama, i find.
It shouldn&#8217;t really be quite so happy-making. The situation in Tibet is horrible, the idea of ladies with poison in their headscarves trying to murder a 76 year old monk surreal. (Oh, OK, and also a tiny [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>There&#8217;s nothing that cheers up a morning quite like listening to an interview with the Dalai Lama, i find.</p>
<p>It shouldn&#8217;t really be quite so happy-making. The situation in Tibet is horrible, the idea of ladies with poison in their headscarves trying to murder a 76 year old monk surreal. (Oh, OK, and also a tiny bit funny, but only because they didn&#8217;t succeed.)</p>
<p>But just hearing the Dalai Lama talk &#8211; about the need for letting go of anger, of the way he is sure things will change for the better &#8211; is enough to lift the heart, I think.</p>
<p>See what you think, <a href="http://news.bbc.co.uk/today/hi/today/newsid_9720000/9720812.stm" target="_blank">here. </a></p>
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		<title>Throckton Titbit 1</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 16 May 2012 08:24:33 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[(I thought &#8216;Surrounded By Water Titbit&#8217; lacked a certain something, so I&#8217;m trying &#8216;Throckton Titbit&#8217; for size. What do you think?)
More good news on the novel front: there&#8217;s going to be a German edition of &#8216;Surrounded By Water&#8217;! Hooray!
I have no idea when, yet. I&#8217;m guessing it will be sometime after I finish the manuscript&#8230;. [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>(I thought &#8216;Surrounded By Water Titbit&#8217; lacked a certain something, so I&#8217;m trying &#8216;Throckton Titbit&#8217; for size. What do you think?)</p>
<p>More good news on the novel front: there&#8217;s going to be a German edition of &#8216;Surrounded By Water&#8217;! Hooray!</p>
<p>I have no idea when, yet. I&#8217;m guessing it will be sometime after I finish the manuscript&#8230;. which I&#8217;m now 50,000 words into. More than half way, I think, although you never know when someone&#8217;s going to wander off and do something unexpected for a couple of thousand words. (I don&#8217;t, anyway. Who&#8217;d have thought that Blake&#8230;.hmm? Full of surprises, that one. )</p>
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		<title>Bah! Tuesday books: trilogies</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 15 May 2012 11:18:11 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Bah! Tuesday Book]]></category>
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		<description><![CDATA[I love a good trilogy, me. On Sunday, I finished Wideacre,
 a glorious bodice-ripper of a family saga, full of lace and velvet and revolting peasantry and people gasping in parlours  - and attics, for quite different reasons. (No, I&#8217;m not telling you, you’ll have to read it for yourself.) And one of the best things [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I love a good trilogy, me. On Sunday, I finished <a href="&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/000723001X/ref=as_li_ss_tl?ie=UTF8&amp;tag=bahtocan-21&amp;linkCode=as2&amp;camp=1634&amp;creative=19450&amp;creativeASIN=000723001X&quot;&gt;Wideacre (Wideacre Trilogy)&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.co.uk/e/ir?t=bahtocan-21&amp;l=as2&amp;o=2&amp;a=000723001X&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; alt=&quot;&quot; style=&quot;border:none !important; margin:0px !important;&quot; /&gt; " target="_blank">Wideacre,</a></p>
<p><a href="http://bahtocancer.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/Wideacre.jpg"><img class="aligncenter size-medium wp-image-3709" title="Wideacre" src="http://bahtocancer.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/Wideacre-197x300.jpg" alt="" width="197" height="300" /></a> a glorious bodice-ripper of a family saga, full of lace and velvet and revolting peasantry and people gasping in parlours  - and attics, for quite different reasons. (No, I&#8217;m not telling you, you’ll have to read it for yourself.) And one of the best things was that, when I got to the end, I didn’t have to wonder What Happened Next because I could go straight to my shelf and pluck down <a href="&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/0007230028/ref=as_li_ss_tl?ie=UTF8&amp;tag=bahtocan-21&amp;linkCode=as2&amp;camp=1634&amp;creative=19450&amp;creativeASIN=0007230028&quot;&gt;The Favoured Child&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.co.uk/e/ir?t=bahtocan-21&amp;l=as2&amp;o=2&amp;a=0007230028&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; alt=&quot;&quot; style=&quot;border:none !important; margin:0px !important;&quot; /&gt; " target="_blank">The Favoured Child.</a> Which I will follow, in due course, with <a href="&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/0006514634/ref=as_li_ss_tl?ie=UTF8&amp;tag=bahtocan-21&amp;linkCode=as2&amp;camp=1634&amp;creative=19450&amp;creativeASIN=0006514634&quot;&gt;Meridon (The Wideacre Trilogy: Book 3)&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.co.uk/e/ir?t=bahtocan-21&amp;l=as2&amp;o=2&amp;a=0006514634&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; alt=&quot;&quot; style=&quot;border:none !important; margin:0px !important;&quot; /&gt; " target="_blank">Meridon.</a></p>
<p>I’m not sure whether my love of three-books-in-a-row is just another manifestation of my<a href="http://meandmybigmouth.typepad.com/scottpack/2009/08/guest-blogger-stephanie-butland.html" target="_blank"> big book fetish</a>: there’s definitely something about having the feeling of living properly in another world.</p>
<p>One of my favourite reading experiences ever was Philip Pullman’s <a href="&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/1841593427/ref=as_li_ss_tl?ie=UTF8&amp;tag=bahtocan-21&amp;linkCode=as2&amp;camp=1634&amp;creative=19450&amp;creativeASIN=1841593427&quot;&gt;His Dark Materials: Gift Edition including all three novels: Northern Light, The Subtle Knife and The Amber Spyglass&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.co.uk/e/ir?t=bahtocan-21&amp;l=as2&amp;o=2&amp;a=1841593427&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; alt=&quot;&quot; style=&quot;border:none !important; margin:0px !important;&quot; /&gt; " target="_blank">His Dark Materials</a>, the end of which saw me sobbing my heart out in Carluxccio’s in Kingston, not just for the end of the story &#8211; no! no! let there be love! &#8211; but for the loss of these books that had kept me breathless and enchanted for weeks.</p>
<p>Maybe it’s not so much the trilogies that are special, as any series, and the opportunity to engage long-term.<a href="http://www.bloomsbury.com/MI-McAllister/authors/2328" target="_blank"> Margi,</a> a frequent commenter here, has written a bit-more-than-a-trilogy for older children, about a squirrel called Urchin who lives on the isle of Mistmantle, and <a href="&lt;a target=&quot;_blank&quot; href=&quot;http://www.amazon.co.uk/mn/search/?_encoding=UTF8&amp;%2AVersion%2A=1&amp;tag=bahtocan-21&amp;linkCode=ur2&amp;camp=1634&amp;creative=19450&amp;%2Aentries%2A=0&quot;&gt;Name Your Link&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img src=&quot;https://www.assoc-amazon.co.uk/e/ir?t=bahtocan-21&amp;l=ur2&amp;o=2&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; alt=&quot;&quot; style=&quot;border:none !important; margin:0px !important;&quot; /&gt;" target="_blank">those books</a> are enchanting and beautiful and come highly recommended, especially for those of you who are still lucky enough to read to small people on a regular basis.</p>
<p>What trilogies/series do you recommend? Has anyone got through Lord Of The Rings? I must admit that &#8216;The Hobbit&#8217; pretty much finished me, so I put that particular trilogy on the &#8216;life&#8217;s too short&#8217; shelf.</p>
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		<title>Surrounded by writing</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 14 May 2012 08:40:10 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
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		<category><![CDATA[writing]]></category>

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		<description><![CDATA[At the moment I’m rewriting ‘Surrounded By Water’, my first novel, and it’s going well. I’m about 45,000 words in, which I think is about half way, and I’m loving the process. This new version of the novel has a stripped-down plot and the narrative point of view has changed; and because I already know [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>At the moment I’m rewriting ‘Surrounded By Water’, my first novel, and it’s going well. I’m about 45,000 words in, which I think is about half way, and I’m loving the process. This new version of the novel has a stripped-down plot and the narrative point of view has changed; and because I already know what’s going to happen, because I know my characters well, I’m writing fast and going for, if not quite total immersion, certainly up-to-my-neck-in-it writing. This feels like a good thing to do: I get to put my heart right in to the heart of Throckton (the place where my novel is set) and that helps me to write authentically. (I hope.)<br />
There’s a drawback to this, though. I spend most of a day in my studio, silent and still, but my mind is working overtime as I speak and think and feel on behalf of a whole bunch of people, all of whom I understand, some of whom I don’t much like, but that’s by the by. So when I’m called upon to head back in to the real world, it feels a bit odd. Depending on where I have got to in the novel, back in my life I can feel sad, upset, anxious, ecstatic, afraid, excited &#8211; for no reason that relates to anything to do with my real existence. It’s very odd.<br />
Then there are conversations like this one, with my agent:<br />
Me: Morning!<br />
Oli: Morning! How are you?<br />
Me: I’m fine &#8211; how are you?<br />
Oli: Good, thanks.<br />
Me: Good. How are you?<br />
Oli: um&#8230;<br />
I’ve been like this with several people: I don’t realise that I’ve lost the plot of the conversation until I see them looking at me in a slightly perplexed way. I forget words, forget what I’m doing, forget where I’m going. Last week, I wrote a blog post that was almost word-for-word the same as one I’d written the week before, because I had remembered the idea but forgotten that I’d actually written the post.<br />
To sum up, then: generally, I’m behaving like a half-wit, and it’s because I’m only half in the world.<br />
I didn’t feel like this so much when I was writing Bah! and Thrive, or even with the earlier version of this novel, because my first drafts tend to be at a 1000-words-a-day rate, the equivalent of being up to your knees rather than your neck. And writing the cancer books was about digging around in a different part of my brain.<br />
I’m blessed in my family and friends who are wonderfully tolerant of my current incoherence and/or my unwillingness to stray far from the studio. I am doing my level best not to behave like A Capital-W Writer, and flick my silk scarves about and expect everyone to treat me as though I’m Barbara Streisand. (Surely, if we’re going to do that to anyone, it should be the police officers and midwives, the train drivers and even &#8211; yes, I’m going to say it &#8211; oncologists of the world?) But I probably am having my moments.<br />
I might have my moments on here, too. So, if you show up one day to find that I’ve written a post that you’re sure you’ve seen before, you’re probably right. If there are references to someone I’ve never previously mentioned, they’re probably from Throckton.</p>
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		<title>The Country and The Dead</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 13 May 2012 09:17:21 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Today, I give you two animated poems by Billy Collins. They are both brilliant, and beautiful, and clever, and sad, and stayed with me for a long time after I first saw and heard them. Which is just as it should be, with poetry.


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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Today, I give you two animated poems by Billy Collins. They are both brilliant, and beautiful, and clever, and sad, and stayed with me for a long time after I first saw and heard them. Which is just as it should be, with poetry.</p>
<p><iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/8xovLpim_1s" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></p>
<p><iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/iuTNdHadwbk" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></p>
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		<title>More lovely rain</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 12 May 2012 09:04:25 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[So, after yesterday&#8217;s post, and responses from Twitter, Facebook and comments here, I can add some other reasons to love the rain:
11. The smells you get after rain. Lots of people mentioned this one, and I couldn&#8217;t believe that I hadn&#8217;t&#8230; especially when I walked through the garden yesterday afternoon and was ambushed by that [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>So, after yesterday&#8217;s post, and responses from Twitter, Facebook and comments here, I can add some other reasons to love the rain:</p>
<p>11. The smells you get after rain. Lots of people mentioned this one, and I couldn&#8217;t believe that I hadn&#8217;t&#8230; especially when I walked through the garden yesterday afternoon and was ambushed by that honest, earthy, promising smell.</p>
<p>12. The fact that there&#8217;s a word for the smell of the earth after rain. I didn&#8217;t know this, but Rachel and Lou did. (I know Rachel and Lou on the physical plane, and this doesn&#8217;t surprise me a bit.). The word is &#8216;petrichor&#8217;.</p>
<p>13. I&#8217;d thought about the joy of watching a small child jump in a puddle: I hadn&#8217;t considered what a life-saver jumping in puddles is, for a family with small people who have been cooped up in bad weather. Natalie&#8217;s family has a name for this: &#8216;puddle hunting&#8217;.</p>
<p>14. Sarah mentioned the way spiderwebs look, and that sparked a very clear memory for me. I was a child, I was (I think) on one of those Sunday-afternoon walks that, when you&#8217;re a child, it seems puzzling that the grown-ups are so very keen on. And there was a fence &#8211; I suppose I must have been about eye-level with it &#8211; stretching away into the distance, and it was covered in spiderwebs, and they were all glistening and gleaming.</p>
<p>15. So, let&#8217;s add, rainy days spark old memories that make you smile.</p>
<p>16. And then, there&#8217;s the whole washed-cleanness of everything, afterwards.</p>
<p><a href="http://bahtocancer.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/GetAttachment-8.aspx_.jpeg"><img class="aligncenter size-full wp-image-3701" title="GetAttachment-8.aspx" src="http://bahtocancer.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/GetAttachment-8.aspx_.jpeg" alt="" width="214" height="159" /></a></p>
<p>It&#8217;s beautiful, here, today. I may go spiderweb-hunting.</p>
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		<title>Cancer Free Friday: let&#8217;s love rain</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 11 May 2012 09:01:37 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Stephanie</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[If you&#8217;re in the UK, there&#8217;s a good chance you&#8217;ve seen a lot of rain lately. Which wouldn&#8217;t be so bad if it wasn&#8217;t May. Every morning I take a look at my pretty new sandals, bought in a fit of optimism during the hot 3 days of April, before pulling on my boots for [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>If you&#8217;re in the UK, there&#8217;s a good chance you&#8217;ve seen a lot of rain lately. Which wouldn&#8217;t be so bad if it wasn&#8217;t May. Every morning I take a look at my pretty new sandals, bought in a fit of optimism during the hot 3 days of April, before pulling on my boots for another day of dashing from the house to the studio being amazed by how wet you can get in twenty yards.</p>
<p>So this morning, I thought I&#8217;d have a bash at thinking up some reasons to love the rain. Please, join in in the comments. (Unless your house is flooded, your car is under water, your kitchen ceiling has collapsed under weight of water, or similar, in which case you are exempt, and perfectly entitled to snarl and grouse and ignore me.)</p>
<p>I love the rain because:</p>
<p>1. I get to do my whole dress-and-flat-boots thing for a bit longer. Which is, let&#8217;s be honest, not unlike getting to wear a nightie and slippers all day.</p>
<p>2. Northern places built of grey and beige stone glow and hum with life when they are wet.</p>
<p>3. When you don&#8217;t have to go anywhere, sitting inside listening to rain on the windows feel extra-comfortable and warm.</p>
<p>4. When you do have to go somewhere, there&#8217;s a good chance you&#8217;ll see a small child jumping in a puddle.</p>
<p>5. If you have access to a small child, you get to play at jumping in puddles yourself.</p>
<p>6. Prolonged rain cancels out the traditional &#8216;don&#8217;t talk to anyone in case they think you are weird/mad&#8217; rule, so you get to chat to people in doorways, in coffee shops, during dashes through car parks.</p>
<p>7. The garden has grown every time you look at it, like that thing with a new baby when you put it down for a sleep and when you go back two hours later, those li&#8217;l feet are practically breaking through the bottom of the babygro.</p>
<p>8. Rainy weather is good writing weather, and reading weather, and knitting weather. All of which suit me very well.</p>
<p>9. When I go for my head-clearing after-writing forty minute walk through the fields, my walking boots make fabulous squelching, squerching noises, and there&#8217;s something about those noises that make me madly, laugh-out-loud, disproportionately happy.</p>
<p>10. There might be a rainbow.</p>
<p>Over to you&#8230;. Why do you like the rain?</p>
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