Subscribe11th August 2011
Today was a good day but:
It was raining and I wore suede shoes.
I had to wait an hour before I was seen by my Consultant.
There’s still scarring on the primary site.
The secondary tumour hasn’t shrunk as much as it could have done which means surgery to remove it.
I discussed my future sex life with my Stepmum in the room.
My Dad cried.
I realised cancer will always be a part of my life.
Today was a bad day but:
My suede shoes had 4 inch heels and I wore them with a confident wiggle for the first time in months.
I spent an hour chatting to my family and my Specialist Nurse.
The primary cancer has shrunk so much there’s only scarring left.
The secondary tumour on my lymph node alerted me something was wrong and more than likely saved my life.
My Stepmum came down from the Midlands to come into the Consultant’s office with me.
My Dad cried because he was relieved and happy.
(pause)
I realised that yes, cancer will indeed always be part of my life but what a lucky, blessed life I have!
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a very insightful and thought prevoking blog! You can’t always be Polly-Anna or wollow in misery to get a balanced view you need to look at all sides of the issue to get the right perspective.
PS I bet the shoes will be beautiful again if you just give them a gentle brush.